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May 7th, 2012
12:10 am - Please...
...just kill me already. I think I'm already dead on the inside.
Donate my organs to people more worthy. I'm not worth it. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.
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April 7th, 2012
10:52 am - Baby baby!
I got myself a Viola!!! Kinda proud of myself; I'm finally learning something I want. ... Hopefully I don't give this up halfway. Anyway, my new baby!!!
Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.
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March 21st, 2012
11:08 pm - Stupid Cupid
Why hasn't love struck me yet?
Valentines came and gone, and I still have nothing. If I can't find my interest, at least give me a man to throw my interest on! I don't have much time left; this year is my deadline!
I want to LOVE!!!
I want to go on dates!
I want to kiss, cuddle and all with my boyfriend!
Cupid, is that to much of me to ask?! Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.
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November 13th, 2011
02:29 am - music quote
No Love; No more.
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November 8th, 2011
02:13 am - Passion, Dreams, Future, LIfe.
I seriously have no idea what i'm gonna do with my life. I just flipped though Facebook and see my friends studying in stuff they like, or working in stuff they love. Then I think of myself; What am I going to do? Am I gonna continue working like this? Wasting my life just for money? I'm not happy. :( But, I should be content with my life. You know how people say it's better for someone to have dreams than someone with no dreams? I fully understand that now. With a dream, there's a direction in life. Without a dream, you're just a lost soul. I need to think. And know what I want in my life. I can't continue living like this.
It's like living like a puppet; I can't do anything unless a master moves me.
I'll die if this goes on. It's killing me slowly on the inside.
I don't wanna realise my dreams when I'm 30; when everything's so late.
And I can never fulfil them. =(
Words can't even express my sadness now. =(
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August 31st, 2011
01:03 am
no work! yes work! no work! yes work!
give me the stregth to go and workkk!!! rawr!
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August 16th, 2011
01:20 am - lacking
I feel like I felt Love when I sing heart-breaking love songs.
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August 1st, 2011
02:35 am - Story of Us
I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met, and the sparks flew instantly
And people would say they're the lucky ones
Used to know my place was a spot next to you,
Now i'm searching the room for an empty seat.
Cause lately, I don't even know what page you're on.
Oh, a simple complication
Miscommunications lead to fallout,
So many things that I wish you knew;
So many walls up that I can't break through!
Now I'm standing alone in a crowed room
And you're not speaking
And i'm dying to know is it killing you,
Like it killing me?
Yeah
I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the Story of Us looks a lot like a tragedy now
[Next Chapter]
How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me
I'm starting to think one day, i'd tell the Story of Us
Of how I was losing my mind when i saw you here
But you held your pride like you should've held me
Oh, I'm scared to see the ending; why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you i miss you but i don't know how;
I've never heard silence quite this loud
Now I'm standing alone in a crowed room
And you're not speaking
And i'm dying to know is it killing you,
Like it killing me?
Yeah
I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the Story of Us looks a lot like a tragedy now
Thisis looking like a contest
Of who can act like they cared less
But i liked it better when you were on my side
The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armour down
If you said you'd rather love than fight
So many things you wish I knew
But the Story of Us might be ending soon
Now I'm standing alone in a crowed room
And you're not speaking
And i'm dying to know is it killing you,
Like it killing me?
Yeah
I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the Story of Us looks a lot like a tragedy now
Now, Now, NOW!
And you're not speaking
And i'm dying to know is it killing you,
Like it killing me! Yeah!
I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the Story of Us looks a lot like a tragedy now
THE END
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Love Taylor Swift. she rocks!
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March 25th, 2011
05:31 pm - you're only lonely~
I feel like singing. I like my pathetic singing. I love my not-so-nice dancing.
Sometimes, such as moments like now, I feel the hope to confess to the person I like.
But it seems that everytime I blog, it'll be about love, or liking something or someone.
Screw it. My blog, my ranting/complaining/confessing corner.
A friend of mine did something brave today. As proud as I am of her, I often think that what if the results were opposite?
Will my heart be broken? will it be happier? Or will I finally have closure from all my 'open' windows?
Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and feel sad just by looking at yourself?
I know I used to. But at some point in time, I learned to love myself a little more.
Screw my flaws, I have a sweet smile, I've got a dimple...
We all start from small little areas of good points. Only when you learn to love yourself, then you learn to love others.
And, my urge to dance is still there! I was hoping to dance during a chalet I went for earlier this week, but no chance! =(
Dancing with people are more fun. Jio me if anyone has to urge to boogie, wokies?
(not like anyone reads this anyway)
My mum asks me if I'm worried that I cant get a boyfriend. My reply is 'No'. However, I can't help but have moments of uneasiness.
I'm 20. going 21.
I've never fallen in love. Closest I got to a guy (in terms of physical contact) is dancing.
I see many friends (older and younger than me) falling in love, getting attached, even some getting married.
HOW CAN I NOT WORRY????
I honestly think there's a chance where no guy will find me attractive and I'll die a lonely old woman with ten thousand cats. Or one of those old aunties who feeds cats around your block's void deck.
Thinking on this topic, I dont think I've got high expectations in males. Taller than me, attractive in my eyes... not gay... that's all.
Maybe I can start putting my relationship status as: Single, Available. Apparantly unwanted.
HAHA! =D
End of rant. Cheers people reading this! (although I think no one does. TeeHee!) ♥
Current Mood:  bored
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February 16th, 2011
04:49 pm - Reality goes on... and on... and on.
Reality seems to be my limitations. Emotions gets in the way. Worry causes me to stay.
My time will fly very soon. Will my interest and dreams be able to catch up before my youth disappears?
I miss going out with friends. =(
Moreover, I've moved over to a new desk, which is seriously very isolated. My desk currently stands alone in front of boss's office. =((
On some days, I really feel like not working at all. School's motivation was friend and awesome classmates. Work's... responsibilities.
I miss the warmth of being with friends.
And... I wanna DANCE.
I can't believe that I'm waking up every morning hoping to dance, even it's just for a bit.
Augh. Money making must come first. WORK WORK WORK. =((
Current Mood:  crushed
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